Glass half full day

Well today has not been my favorite day, I have a lot to do and not much time to do it. I felt the need to write something seeing as it is my first post and seeing as it is the start to a new chapter in my life. Today I lost my job, based on false accusations of stealing... turns out what I was accused of stealing I actually already owned. Don't worry though I'm handling the situation civilly and fairly. On top of all of this our car broke down yesterday, Tom the mechanic said that we have probably been driving without a fan belt for a few days and it was just a mater of time till the battery died. It was both good and bad news and all I could do was laugh. 

All day today I have had my heart in my stomach, at points fighting back tears and others so overwhelmed with the irony of the situation that I can't help but laugh. I am grateful in some strange way for everything that has happened today with my job, last night with the car and a week ago with being accepted into a new apartment. Change is good! change is great! but change is hard, right now Paul and I are leaning on one another more than ever.

I am claiming that the loss of my job is a blessing, and an opportunity, I can now focus on school, on my marriage, and on seeking out new career opportunities. I am so close to graduating and we have been talking about weather or not I could quit my job, now that decision has been made for me. 

It is hard to describe the feeling of being fired, to be alone with my thoughts is painful, I feel similar to how I did when my grandmother died in 2005. exhausted but not tired, famished but not hungry, and parched but not thirsty. I am a walking contradiction today!